Worries Coming Back

I had a dream, while in the safe haven with Julia, of how my mother was vaporized and my sister likely killed, as well. It pulled me back into the depression of years past, and to all my worries of taking steps closer to the grave. Julia is a very comforting dear. I admire her carefree nature and ability to simply remain in the present without any worries of the future. It's horrible to think of our impending doom. It doesn't matter when it comes in the future; just the knowledge that it will come is impossible to worm around. However, if I can adopt Julia's state of mind, I can enjoy the existence I have left. That, at least, is comfort. However long we have left, it will be together.